To Suffer Or Not To Suffer

 Are you happy with yourself? Do you think you are what you want to be? Are you aware enough to regret how you lived your life? Or are you just "happy" about it? Don't you think there is something wrong with things? Maybe it is people around you or it is you who has been wrong, but does it really matter? There is always wrong with the things, always something to be changed.

 We always suffer. This is just a fact because even if we are happy, that level of happiness is will be normal after some time. There is no constant happiness. We always get used to the level of happiness we got -if you ever become happy though-. Think about your biggest desire from your life. How long will it take for happiness to just fade away like it is nothing? Time kills everything, except for itself. Give it a few days and your dream job will be mediocre. And there goes all your life efforts for nothing, just a few happy days.

 Time kills everything but that doesnt work for something that reborns again and again even before it dies. Yes i am talking about pain. It always wait for you right after to corner to attack you when you are paralysed by happiness and your guards are off. So that it can give the most agony with attacking at the weakest part of you.

 You cant do anything about it because you are human. You are ought to suffer. Think about all those philosophers that came and tried to beat the most omnipotent opponent. The suffering. They all came up with ideas that meant to sent that creature to hell but do you think any of them ever succeded? Do you think there is such thing as happy person that found the secret of happiness?

 I think the most common mistake humans do in the path of solving that secret is they are thinking independently. Humans depends on eachother. Their bound is so strong that even the idea of loneliness may lead to anxiety for most of us. But it is not just the social connections we are bound to. The way we think and act is chosen by the people around us. Every time we buy something, read something, even every time we decide something, it is the people around us who have made the decision, consiously or not. We buy because others buys those kinds of things, we believe in things because we have seen others believe in that way too.

 So how in the hell we may find some rare truths and act on it? You will find a relatively good idea about the way of living and you will see that no other person will do the same thing. So you will feel alone about that decision and you will be afraid, what if it was just stupid think to do? What if it is not a big deal?? What if it changes nothing and i am only getting too much excited? Well then, i may ask is it not a good thing to be excited about things? Isn't it the most important thing when it comes to being connected to life? And more importantly acting on it?

 So if we ever want to get away a little from the suffering that surrounds you, try to be a bit rebel. Try to be a bit yourself, do the things that you always wanted but just didnt. Because that way you can get little more enjoyment from your life, even though it will fade away kindly.