Key to Happiness and Virtue

To love what you have to do. This is the purpose of conditioning: To make people like their inevitable fate.

-Aldous Huxley

Born To Die. World Is A Fuck.

 What is the meaning to all of these? We have born because our parents wanted us to at some point. But it is not their right to throw us at this existence. Okay, they did. So what should be doing after that? Should we accept our existence and just go on with it? Is there something worth to live for? What is the purpose given to the human race? Why do we live for 50-70 years and then just cease to exist? All we have and will ever have will be in those 50-70 years. So all the time we got is about 60 year. And then we will just vanish just like before the birth.

 So what do we do with only and everything we got - the life of ours? We are born, we struggle with the condition of our lifetime and the body of ours, and then typically we die. We accomplish nothing. All our hopes, loves, excitements and fears and worries are gone. Which were so little actually. We didn't get the most out of life, almost no one did. We didn't care even a little about the only thing we have. We didn't enjoy it at most. We didn't suffer at most. We didn't experience at most. This one the only chance we got and we just threw it to the trash with being blind with the things that surround us. We just played the given role. We didn't become ourselves. We were mesmerized. Life was not ours. We tried hard to adjust to life but there was something not fitting about it.


 We only tried to adjust ourselves to life but we didn't try to become what we want to be. We didn't care about us, we just cared about the role. The thing we want the most, the thing we are happy with the most. All of them was the last thing on our mind.



 The only thing we will ever be had will be wasted the time we lose it. We will lose everything but there is a difference with wasting it to trash or wasting it with enjoying it. There is no big purpose but we can at least use it wisely with getting the most of it.

 But does it really matter? Are we able to enjoy it enough to afford the effort we will give? Or are we destined to be doomed with the life given to us? Is there even meaning to try to find a meaning to our lives? Are not we be sad in the end, all the time?

 So why would we live? Why shall we still suffer while there is no meaning? There is doom at the end of every path. Death awaits us where ever we go. The only rest we will have is at the graveyard. We are trying to reach stars while the only thing we are capable of is reaching other continents - at most. We can only imagine what it is like to reach other galaxies and that wish will become toxic as the craving increases.

 There is no reason to live. There is no reason to hope. There is no reason to be.
We are all born to die. World is a fuck.

To Suffer Or Not To Suffer

 Are you happy with yourself? Do you think you are what you want to be? Are you aware enough to regret how you lived your life? Or are you just "happy" about it? Don't you think there is something wrong with things? Maybe it is people around you or it is you who has been wrong, but does it really matter? There is always wrong with the things, always something to be changed.

 We always suffer. This is just a fact because even if we are happy, that level of happiness is will be normal after some time. There is no constant happiness. We always get used to the level of happiness we got -if you ever become happy though-. Think about your biggest desire from your life. How long will it take for happiness to just fade away like it is nothing? Time kills everything, except for itself. Give it a few days and your dream job will be mediocre. And there goes all your life efforts for nothing, just a few happy days.

 Time kills everything but that doesnt work for something that reborns again and again even before it dies. Yes i am talking about pain. It always wait for you right after to corner to attack you when you are paralysed by happiness and your guards are off. So that it can give the most agony with attacking at the weakest part of you.

 You cant do anything about it because you are human. You are ought to suffer. Think about all those philosophers that came and tried to beat the most omnipotent opponent. The suffering. They all came up with ideas that meant to sent that creature to hell but do you think any of them ever succeded? Do you think there is such thing as happy person that found the secret of happiness?

 I think the most common mistake humans do in the path of solving that secret is they are thinking independently. Humans depends on eachother. Their bound is so strong that even the idea of loneliness may lead to anxiety for most of us. But it is not just the social connections we are bound to. The way we think and act is chosen by the people around us. Every time we buy something, read something, even every time we decide something, it is the people around us who have made the decision, consiously or not. We buy because others buys those kinds of things, we believe in things because we have seen others believe in that way too.

 So how in the hell we may find some rare truths and act on it? You will find a relatively good idea about the way of living and you will see that no other person will do the same thing. So you will feel alone about that decision and you will be afraid, what if it was just stupid think to do? What if it is not a big deal?? What if it changes nothing and i am only getting too much excited? Well then, i may ask is it not a good thing to be excited about things? Isn't it the most important thing when it comes to being connected to life? And more importantly acting on it?

 So if we ever want to get away a little from the suffering that surrounds you, try to be a bit rebel. Try to be a bit yourself, do the things that you always wanted but just didnt. Because that way you can get little more enjoyment from your life, even though it will fade away kindly.

Dream

Dream a dream that you have always dreamt. Dream a dream that you have always wanted it to come true. Dream a dream that has always made you happy before you sleep and after you wake up. Dream a dream that nobody has never ever been dreaming.
Now, dream what I will tell you shortly after, and feel what I mean.
Suddenly you woke up and you are in place in which you have never been before. You see some different creatures. You get close to them and ask: "Where is this place?"
They say you something but you don't understand. You ask again and the same thing happens. Then you go away. You feel alone. You slowly understand that you are in a different world. You start to remember something. But it is just a brightness at all. Not a clear image. You sit in a corner and start to cry. Then one of them comes to you. Sees you crying. Tells you something but you don't understand. You just know that it looks like robots which you saw in your world. And kind of looks like a girl. You say: "I don't  understand what you are saying..." Then she says: Are you a human?"
You jump up and wipe your eyes. And say: " You understand my language?" She says: "I just downloaded it" with a small smile. You ask: "Where is this place?" "Here is the fourth dimension of the universe in your language", "But we just call it Blankless" she says. "Why Blankless?" you ask. "Because finding something in something that is not alive or Blank is the success in our opinion." "We found a place in which we can be and save our race here" "We are not alive, we are just metal pieces that is powering with electricity" "But inside our circuit we also have some feelings" she says. You are confused. You are in Blankless. You found someone who can understand you. But she is not a human. She is a robot. How could you trust her? She is not a human, right?
Then you ask her: "Where can I stay here?" She says you can stay in my power plant. I already have nobody there. You ask: "Don't you have a family?" On her head, some arcs appear. And says: "Your race killed my family" And arcs get huge. "You humans killed my family and I escaped." she says. You are really scared. And say: "I didn't kill your family. I hate my race too..." "I was always alone in my world." I was scared to talk to people because they are horrific." Her arcs get smaller then disappear. And says: "Do you really think like that?"  "Aren't you proud of your race?"
"I have never been proud of my race." you say. Then you both arrive her power plant. The place is kind of ruin. You sit on a battery and she walks into a something like a room. And comes back with two containers. Gives one of them to you. And says: "Your race gives something to drink when a guess comes to their home and you are my guess anymore, so I give this to you." A little tear drops down. You drink a little but it taste so bad and smells so bad to you. You ask: "What is this drink?" With a cute smile, she says: "It is koresine. It is really good for my mechanics." And with a crying smile, you say: "But not for my mechanics."
She is a little shocked. She has that stupid-cute mimic on her face and says: "Don't you drink kerosine?" You say: "Umm... Nope?" She says: "You are like that little robots who are just capable to make stupid noises and nothing. They don't drink kerosine, too." You start to laugh and say: "But my body doesn't accept kerosine." She says: "Ohh, then it is logical." Somehow you don't feel like you are in a different world and you are talking to a robot which isn't even alive like you.
Then your human body needs some sleep and you lay down on the ground and try to sleep. Then she comes and sees you laying down movelessly and runs towards you and tries to wake you up. She gives you some electrical shockes and you jump up. And try to understand what is going on. You ask her: "Hey, hey calm down. What is the problem?" She says: "When I saw you movelessly on the ground, I thought your batteries were dead." You feel something different to this cute expression. And say: "I charge my batteries when I am sleeping." She says: "Wow! Is that a new technology?" You a little laugh and say: "Yes, yes." She frenetically yells with her beautiful robot voice: "I want that, too." And you say: "Okay okay, when I am fully charged, you will get it" She seems so happy about it that her arcs were even dancing. You start to feel love to this cute robot. It is a feeling that you have never felt to a girl, a human. You really feel it. You feel like you finally found someone whom you can live with. Then you sleep. And woke up.
You are in your bed. You see your sister playing a game in your computer which is called "Cyborgs" You are now aware of the dream. It was all your imagination. It was your dream. Which you have always wanted it to come true. It was your feelings. It was your ideas. It was your world. Even if it was a short time, you were surrounded with your own world. Feelings isn't about stereotypes that we are taught. Feelings are what makes us us.